Archive for March, 2008

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A little lost

March 8, 2008

I haven’t been able to stick to 1200 calories. Its easy enough on regular days, but I need a rest day (from the gym) once in a while and its impossible to eat so little then. I have upped myself to 1400. I am hoping that with heavy activity the caloric deficit will average itself out to a good number.

Last night I blew everything by having a glass of wine. Once I had a glass of wine I had four squares of dark chocolate. Then I had a bowl of berries and cream. Then I got into a knock-down, drag-out fight with my husband. I’m not sure why I have to prove these things to myself over and over again. Sugar destroys me from the inside out. It works quickly, from the inside out. First the mood worsens and then the abdomen expands. I am not quite sure what I am doing lately. I don’t know why I can’t just be an adult and stop testing my limits constantly. I feel better than before, and I can keep the bloating and distention under control. But I cannot lose anymore weight. My Tanita tells me that I gained two pounds but lost 3% of body fat. I think I am completely lost. I feel like a body on the fringe of science and nutrition, constantly. I never have an answer. I never find the solution. I think this is the feeling that spurs me on to evil experimentation; I don’t have any control over my body.

I am thinking of doing the Eades Protein-sparing modified fast, but I am not sure. For now I am sticking to induction carb grams and a high-quality protein shake for lunch. I bought a Polar F6 last night. It will be interesting to see how many calories I truly burn during activity.

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The sporting life

March 6, 2008

 I’ve done some math and I actually have been eating more than I thought during my Daily Plate days. As I restricted to 1200 only part of the time, I knew that an average, if taken, would be higher, although I would have guessed closer to 1450. The number is more like 1550 – 1650. Although this means I still should have seen more weight loss than I have, the disparity between what “should be” and “what is” is actually less than I thought. Enter the calorie-restricted, low-carb diet. I’ve never been daft enough to think that metabolic advantage would get me weight loss at any number. I guess I just thought that with an RMR of 1980, I could get away with 1600 – 1700 calories. Now I’m keeping it in the neighborhood of 1200 net, which in the past I had thought was too low. I used to be very hungry on 1200. Now that the majority of my calories come from fat, 1200 is not really so hard. I’m netting 1200 too, not grossing 1200, so on very active days I will be liable to eat closer to 17 – 1800 calories.

Distention is still at bay but I feel a little puffy now and then. I eat things that I know I shouldn’t and I react but not as badly as I used to. I know that means that I am healing, and I know I should not keep eating these things, if I want to continue to heal. It seems that inulin is still a bad idea, although not nearly as bad as it was only a little over a month ago. Wheat is really not a good idea, nor is soy.

I have upped my carbs from induction numbers and I feel water retention. I’m thinking ketosis is a good place for me right now, yet I’m having trouble reconciling my desire for ketosis with my need to work out a lot. I’m doing Pilates most every morning and trying to make it to yoga twice a week, a sculpting class once a week, and cardio most other days. I need to find ketosis above induction numbers but most probably below 40 g. Perhaps a Fage after workouts would help.